Deja Vu or Destiny??????

         

          It begins right after my College graduation in 2007, there is this certain guy that spontaneously appearing in my dreams. At first, the vision is unclear the only that is visible is his height and skin complexion. On the following nights, the vision is becoming clearer. This man has an eye glasses, fair skin, and squint eyes, taller than me and with a gentle appearance. All these time, I convinced myself that he is just a dream and nothing more.

          Furthermore, just last summer 2012, during the first day of my post –graduate studies in one of Manila’s prestigious universities, there is this guy who changes my life. My so called quiet world suddenly changes from 180 degrees to 360 degrees. Upon entering the University’s gate, I have this mantra that I will complete my master’s degree program so that I could finally have this opportunity migrating in New Zealand. But the unexpected thing happen to me, I fell in love for the first time.

          Though I am a member of the “No Boyfriend Since Birth” club, I deeply swear this is the first time Cupid use his archery skill to pierce my heart. Though we both belong to the same class, this dude disturbs my mind very often and I don’t know why.

          He is the boy - next – door type and even though there are a lot of girls swooning before him, I don’t give a damn at first (since falling in love with a Chinese man is not included in my list).

          Hence, in each passing day he keeps on doing strange things. Among our male classmates, he is the only one that leaves the crowd whenever I am about to enter the room and moves away when I am near him. Aside from these, there are other things that I am curious about like he never looks at me whenever we are talking.

          He is the first one to start the conversation and I am surprise the way he talks to me. I am not used to people who turn their back, look at the ground or even turning side views whenever they are talking to me. Promise! He is the first one to do that to me. Though it is the first time that we see each other at the back of my mind he looks familiar as if we already met before.

          Indeed the mind could remember a lot of things, whatever the heart forgets the mind recalls. Since we started to have small talks it becomes clear to me that he resembles with someone else – the Chinese man in my dreams. I ask myself how come he looks familiar, have I seen him somewhere else?    I even ask the universe if this is for real.  Of all the men in this world why him? I cannot figure it out how come that man that only appears in my dreams suddenly came to life?  Way back in 2007, I convinced myself that he is only a dream and nothing more. But how would you explain such incident as that?  

          As days pass by, I suddenly have this strange feeling towards him. The feeling that you cannot explain, all you have to do is to feel it. My friends may ridicule me because of this “feelings” but what can I do for the first time in my life I felt this way. I feel happy whenever he is around and simply contented with his simple glances. I even have some crazy episodes just to be with him and see him. Although it hurts, I am happily content watching him from a distant place.

         

          When I was young, my paternal grandmother (who is half Spanish and half Chinese) made me promise not to fall in love with a Chinese national.  And so I grow up telling myself not to fall in love with an East Asian because my Grandma tells me so. But I guess what others say is true that God will give you the opposite of what you are looking for in a mate. You may not have what you wanted the most but you will end up having the very best thing you truly deserves.